Hello….

:/

Sorry. It’s the first time since my business. There were A LOT of things I had to do.

Why confusion?

Aku lagi galau. -_-

There’s someone. Or rather ****.

He said something hurtful.

AHAHAHAHAHA…

Come on, Hanna! FIGHTING, STAND UP!! And you know what? I have a nickname for him: Epilepsy Lion. Or maybe Autism Lion. Haha…. –” yeah, And I don’t feel guilty at all. -_-*

And I don’t know why–I even confused in myself, why I react like this.

Mengakui sesuatu berat… tapi honestly, I want to present this for him–even though he wouldn’t notice it.

Standing...

Back to December–Taylor Swift

I’m so glad you made time to see me.
How’s life? Tell me how’s your family.
I haven’t seen them in a while.
You’ve been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, “I’m sorry for that night,”
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you.
Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine.
I’d go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven’t been sleeping,
Staying up, playing back myself leavin’.
When your birthday passed and I didn’t call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was “Goodbye”.

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, “I’m sorry for that night.”
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you,
Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine.
I’d go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile,
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night —
The first time you ever saw me cry.

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
But if we loved again, I swear I’d love you right.

I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, “I’m sorry for that night.”
And I go back to December…
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you,
Wishing I’d realize what I had when you were mine.
I’d go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I’d go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time.
All the time. 

Bedanya adalah aku nggak kembali ke bulan Desember, gak ada yang spesial di bulan itu. Tapi pas itu keadaannya nggak secomplicated ini. -_____-” dan perbedaan lain, he never becomes mine, now or past.

Tapi kalimat ini punya makna sendiri, “So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, “I’m sorry for that night.”

I am not standing on front of him, technically. But, I really wanna say sorry. -///-

ohya kemaren itu hari yang… ngelawak. Ortuku pergi ke luar kota, jadi sebagai anak yang baik hati dan tidak sombong aku jaga rumah. T_T enak sih, bebas.

Tapi bingung mo ngapaiiiin. T___________T gaada kerjaan deh.

Nasibku kebetulan sama ama my best-crazy-friend, namanya Kanda, hheh. Kite bedua udah kaya anak terlantar. Tapi kayaknya dia parah banget, meratapi nasip di kamar, lagi banget betenya sampe-sampe dia lupa mo ngomong apa ke saya. Doh–kasian bener kau. -__-” Ngakunya kaga ada masalah, tapi gatau juga. Kita smsan tapi isinya gajelas, mulai dari nanya-nanya mo ngapain neh sekarang saking betenya, ngomongin Arya–kalo Arya baca blog ini, jangan marah duluan loh–ngomongin poto Fadhlan di pesbuk dan aib-aib orang yang dengan ilegalnya diupload sama kanda saking punya bakat alamnya.

#napas dulu

Terus sampe ke kecoak. Hahaha ketawa lo, Kan. -____-* ohya buat si Cameron, jangan mikir macem-macem ya…. T0T kita cuma ngomongin begituan. Please! Cuma temen biasa. Biasalah, anak-anak galau.

Lanjutt…. WESTLIFE mau bubar! T_________T T_________T T________T trus gimana doong nasip Westlifers di seluruh dunia??? But, decision is full controlled by them, kita ga bisa ngapa-ngapain. Lagian mereka juga perlu break sih… 14 tahun bo, merajai chart-chart musik, penghargaan, tur-tur. Mereka udah melegenda banget di dunia musik. Jadi… terserah mereka but whatever they choose, we still love you, Westlife! Keep moving on and fighting!

Dan sekarang aku ngepens ama Backstreet boys. v+_+v hahaha mentang-mentang westlife bubar? Nggak lah, Westlife always be in my heart, #1. Tapi I do like BSB since I was in elementary. Mereka belom bubar, mereka boyband beranggotakan 5 orang (atau 6???) yg udah berdiri selama 16 YEARS dan favoritku adalah Nick Carter!

Nick!

Hehe…

Gatau ya, apa emang udah takdir atau apa, tiap kali aku ngepens ama boyband barat, kenapa first sightnya cowok with blue eyes…?

Waktu first time I saw Westlife, I was directly loving Mark Feehily, the man with the blue eyes.

Same with this! WTH banget kan?Aku ngepens Nick Carter secara tiba-tiba waktu liat MV BSB yg taun 2007 itu. Pas kuperatiin, dia juga bermata biru. Hohoho….

Well, talking bout Backstreet boys, I wanna give him something too, a song but sekali lagi aku ga ngerti kenapa aku mau persembahin ini buat dia–dan lagi, dia gakkan tau–tapi let’s just write it.

Backstreet Boys-Shape of My Heart

Hmm, yeah, yeah
Baby, please try to forgive me
Stay here don’t put out the glow
Hold me now don’t bother if every minute it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man that I’ve become, oh yeah

Lookin’ back on the things I’ve done
I was tryin’ to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Sadness is beautiful loneliness that’s tragical
So help me I can’t win this war, oh no
Touch me now don’t bother if every second it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man I’ve become

Lookin’ back on the things I’ve done
I was tryin’ to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

I’m here with my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I don’t know where to start
But to show you the shape of my heart

I’m lookin’ back on things I’ve done
I never wanna play the same old part
I’ll keep you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Lookin’ back on the things I’ve done
I was tryin’ to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Lookin’ back on the things I’ve done
I was tryin’ to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Show you the shape of my heart 

Aku punya makna sendiri(lagi), di awal kalimatnya, “Please try to forgive me” sama yg “Lookin’ back on the things I’ve done.”

Hehe… -_-* karena suatu insiden naik darah. -_____-*

But, overall, I don’t really like him anymore. -_-

Dia yang mulai duluan, but I wanna say sorry.

Well! That’s all deh.

See you again guys,

Cheers!

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